I miss her.
It was 20 years yesterday. 20 years since I heard her laugh, since we shared a meal, since I pretended to be embarrassed as she danced without a care in the world. 20 years since I gave her a hug. How could it be? How is it that in those 20 years, I have found love, created life, and now live in a cozy little valley town in California? How is it that my mother does not know this side of me?
Perhaps she does. I’d like to think so. I’d like to think she has been there, watching me, every step of the way.
I miss her more than ever. And in many ways, the idea, the concept, the reality that 20 years have passed is one that my mind can not grasp. It happened in the blink of an eye.
But something else has happened.
I find her in the moments that make me happy. She is there, in those silly moments, when I do a goofy dance with my children, just as she used to, with us. She is there when we savor life’s little adventures, be it a family trip or trying a tasty new hole in the wall. She is there when my daughter dances on stage at her recital. She is there when my son hugs me and reminds me, “she’s always in your heart, mommy.”
I tell them as often as I can. I’ll tuck them into bed, and whisper, “Remember, I’ll always be with you. In your heart.” I want them to know. Just in case. Just in case I leave them too soon.
So when my son put his hands on my cheeks yesterday and reminded me that she is always in my heart, I felt her. As my tear met his hands, I knew that she was in his heart, too.
That teardrop turned into happy tears. My children inherited her compassion, and her kindness. They know how to spread happiness.
Spreading the happy. Being a mother has taught me that it’s my children who remind me that the little things that can make a day special: Walking through the farmer’s market on a Saturday morning, with the sun on our shoulders. Sampling to find just the right cherries. Discovering that they will be perfect in some tender scones for breakfast on a Sunday morning. Or even better, enjoying them for desert, warm and straight out of the oven, with chocolate hazelnut spread sandwiched between, oozing out the sides.
These Cherry Nutella Scones were the perfect way to spread happiness with the special people in my life, and packaged up, they will make some friends who need a pick me up a reason to smile, too. I couldn’t think of a sweeter way celebrate happiness this season as our friends at Nutella spreads the happy this summer. I hope you check out the Nutella® Tumblr page at http://nutellausa.tumblr.com — share pictures of how you enjoy Nutella, find more recipes, and join in spreading the happy!
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Cherry Nutella Scones
Scones, I find, are a taste of happiness any time of day. Eat them warm in the morning with some tea for breakfast, or make them a dessert with a dollop of Nutella. Either way, it's guaranteed to make your heart smile.
2 1/2 cups all-purpose flour
1/2 cup granulated sugar
1 tablespoon baking powder
1/4 teaspoon kosher salt
1/2 cup cold butter, cut into small pieces
2 large eggs
2/3 cup buttermilk
2 cups cherries, pitted and quartered
2 tablespoons cream
2 teaspoons sugar
1/2 teaspoon ground cinnamon
Nutella, for serving
In a large bowl, whisk together the flour, sugar, baking powder and salt. Using a pastry cutter, cut the butter into the flour mixture, until you have course crumbs. This can also be done with two knives or a food processor.
Whisk the eggs lightly and combine with the buttermilk. Add to the flour mixture and stir until just moist.
Add the cherries to the dough, then mix lightly. The dough will be sticky.
On a lightly floured surface, turn the sticky dough out and knead lightly until the cherries are incorporated into the dough and the dough is shapped into a disk. Roll the dough 3/4 inch thick. Using a bisquit cutter or cookie cutter, cut out 3 inch rounds. You should have about 8 scones. Place the scones on a baking sheet lined with parchment or a silicone mat, and lightly brush with half and half. Stir together the sugar and cinnamon and sprinkle over the scones.
Place the scones in the freezer for 30 minutes. Meanwhile, preheat the oven to 400 degrees F.
Once the scones are chilled, bake for 20 minutes, or until golden. Let it cool slightly, then cut the scones in half. Spread with Nutella and enjoy.